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Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Before I switch off my computer to study chinese (yes I hear cries and gasps of shock) I have something to say. Gen has had her share, now me.
I thought about it these few days, and (oh shit, comma before conjunction) I realised that this can't go on any longer. I don't want to end such a wonderful year with problems within the clique that I love the most and among friends whom we have known since sec one. I don't want all these years of fun we had together to go to waste. May be cheesy, yes, but I don't really care cos I NEED TO STUDY CHINESE AND I AM SERIOUSLY RUNNING OUT OF TIME, BECAUSE MRS TIAN MADE ME DO TRIAL EXAMS YESTERDAY AND I AM THEREFORE DISTRAUGHT WITH STRESS.
Anyway, we have to resolve this soon. We MUST resolve this soon, and we will. I don't care what it takes, I don't care how we are going to do it (I will keep you here all night) but we are going to work it out. I will not celebrate christmas with us feeling awkward, I don't want choir sessions with all of us feeling emotionally far apart even though we are a clique and I most definitely do not want anyone of us to dread choir because of such problems when it used to be so enjoyable. And I'm sure we all don't want that. I'm sure we will find a way to accommodate everyone and make every single person feel included regardless of any factor that we cannot possibly change. We've been through so much, why can't we pull through now, right?
I hate this weirdness among us and how we are always so scared and apprehensive that everything will not turn out alright and that everyone will not be happy. I hate that feeling of paranoia and being deathly afraid of all possible consequences of whatever we do as a clique, or lack thereof. And yeah, like gen I probably shouldn't write it here but I see no other way of telling you all everything, so yepp, can't help it and I don't see anything wrong now that it has come to this.
We shall sort it out. Enough procrastinating. I want the old clique back (except new and improved with more accommodating and considerate mindsets) and will do anything to have the old clique back. (anything of course other than things that would be against my own free will)
I love you all, and (comma before conjunction again) I definitely don't want that to change. Ever.
Ching penguin (and it actually kinda rhymes)
4:20 pm